Empyrean

So super busy month behind and in front of me. IB exams for the next two weeks and then… Joy of Joys….

PROM!!!

After working through that awkward night comes two or so more weeks of actual classes followed by provincial where they will judge three years worth of knowledge on me, disregarding everything I have done and rendering it to only half its value. That sucks big times of course. Those provincial exams are worth 50% of my final mark in everything. Everything. This sucks royally. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh! I’ve done almost nothing but study and neglected everything online and I kind of feel bad but I just don’t have the time. Plus, on the 28th of June I’m going on a trip for two months to visit some family <(=___=)> Though I’m not looking forward to spending time with strangers (which they are, just because we share a lineage doesn’t mean they know me without ever having spent time with me) who already think they know me, have expectations of what I should be and of my behaviour in their presence. Translation: Two glorious months of being a complete and total hypocrite! Yay! And all this while I could be enjoying myself with my friends during my first summer as an adult! Isn’t it just FANTASTIC?!? I’m getting more and more frustrated with my mother as we get closer to June 28th. She’s making me go (and pay for it, there goes $2, 000) knowing I don’t want to. Why? Because she feels I need to get in touch with my roots or something Disney-like of the sort. Really? Well I feel she should get in touch with reality. They have nothing that I want, they’re the kind of people I avoid : Backwards, religious, prejudiced, homophobic, presumptuous, shower-shy, computer-less, overbearing, nosy… I am NOT looking forward to the next four months of my life right now.

And everybody knows that summer is the best time for festivals and when my city lights up for the year. It’s just the best time to be where I am right now and I won’t get to be, the worst part is that she’s not only guilting me into this (you’re grandparents don’t have much time…) but she’s forcing me too (if you don’t come, you’ll use all the money you saved up to pay for university yourself…) and I just can’t stand it. I know I’m being selfish but this is so frustrating, she’s taken so much away from (she keeps me on a leash almost, and a very short on at that), only a few parties here and there behind her back because I just had to get out of the house, no drinking because I can’t stand her when I’m sober and wouldn’t want to argue with her inebriated where I couldn’t hold my tongue, and it just feels like I’ve missed out on so much and here’s my chance to make up just a little bit of that and she snatches it away from me! I know I will not be a good traveling companion.

On the bright side of things, I got promoted at Bootlegger! Hurray! But it sucks because I’ll be leaving in two months *shoots self* but they said they would hire me again in September… at least I’ll have that to look forward to during University. Bleh.

About the the title… I just found WILCO! “I’m the Man That Loves You” is a single off their album “Yankee Hotel Foxtrot” and it’s my favourite one of the whole album. It’s just brilliant really.

I couldn’t find it but here’s the first song, “I Am Trying To Break Your Heart”

Okay, so I turned 18 in February and now ‘ll be getting my own credit card!

It’s really cool because my Mom is ParanOid with a capital O and wouldn’t let me use hers for stuff online and so even though I work, I can’t spend that money on anything but stores which is fine but there’s only so many clothes I want and well… I work in a mall so you get tired pretty fast of all those stores if you know what I mean.

But with this credits card I’ll finally be able to get what I’ve wanted for a really long time now: A Domain.

I’ve been shopping around too and I think I’ll get a .nu domain, if not a .org or .net but those are really popular and that means someone probably has the name I want.

Speaking of which, what should the name be?

I’m not sure what I want but I know it has to relate to me on some level.

I would also like to take the time to plug in my new blog buddies

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FTGM: Fat Turd Goes To Moon

The idea just popped in my head and I just had to share it. FTGM. Tee hee.

Aaaaaaaaaaarhg! Today at work, this guy came in with a tee shirt reading “not aborted” and I was like how dare you? I mean I realize that not every body shares the same opinions on the matter but to just say that like that, in public? Who knows maybe I’ve been pregnant and had an abortion, how would that make me feel? Maybe I’m depressed because of that or at least I’ve been affected. He doesn’t know that, why must he wear such a shirt?

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not advertising any side of the debate here, just saying that there are things you simply cannot display in public because they are such a sensitive matter.

But FTGM is such a great title. Maybe I should write something for it. Something EPIC, because it deserves it.

Later-z

Avatar from Arisubox

Okay so I think it’s time for me to make some changes in my life. Why? BECAUSE I’M TURNING 18 ON THE 25TH!!!!! OH YEAH! First I’ll do is buy a lottery ticket! I can’t do anything else because it’s monday. XP It just sucks so bad that I have to go to school my first day as an adult *pout* Oh well, at least I’ll have a Thursday and Friday off that week! Yessssssssssss! Even though I can’t do anything on Friday because I have to be at school the next day (Saturday =_____=) at 6:00 IN THE F-in MORNING for a trip. But I won’t mind so much so I’m pumped for Thursday. Come to think of it, this is my las t Thursday as a minor. Odd.

I’m so EXCITED! Especially for Spring Break in April XD!

Which brings me me back to my topic. I think I’ll start being a little healthier so I’ve set myself a few little goals. Here’s the list

1.  Three meals a day plus a fruit snack
2. One visit to the gym, either in the form of the actual gym or the pool, something physical
3. Practice more often the violin. I must play it at least three times a week
4. Same goes for the piano
5. More reading, I’ve been buying books but I haven’t actually read them. Get to that
6. Finish Paradise Lost by Spring Break
7. More homework and studying, no goofing off during my spares.

There, that sounds doable.

Wish me luck, I’ll need it…

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

Hope you had a good break because I sure did.

First of let me tell you….

I. Am. So. EXCITED!!!! Kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can barely hold myself together XD

Okay. So how did it start?

Well last year I wasn’t doing so hot at school (average under 90 bad) so I was pretty bummed. But this year is so much easier on me and somehow I’ve found time for everything, from piano to violin to homewor, to work, and with still spare time. So to show me how proud she is of me my mom is getting me a snowboard! I love snowboarding except that I don’t really get to go because I don’t own my own snowboard so next weekend I’ll be off to Jasper to get some time with the mountains. I’m so giddy. I’ll invite some of my friends so that I don’t have to stay with my family too long. I love them but… they can be a little… annoying. To put it mildly.

In other sadder news, I now wear glasses. Yes. Laugh now but apparently I am now part of a majority. They’re dolce and gabbanas and are shapped like this, but with purple on the outside and green on the inside. They’re really cool. My piano teacher told me so. How do you respond to that? It was weird. Oh well, a compliment’s a compliment right? Oh, back to the glasses. Here’s the picture in black.

I find them attractice. At least I don’t look like a complete nerd. Just emo-ish, ever since I got into skinnies. I love them so much, I have like *counts in head* 7 pairs right now. I love them. A lot. Especially since they look good on me, which makes me happy since I have a bit of a bum. Quite a bit actually. There’s a lot in the chest area actually. Oh well, I’ll take my curses and my blessings.

I’m off!!!

Oh and wish me luck on social presentation for Tuesday and my Biology test on Monday, while were at it my part A English Diploma and a social essay on the 16th. Whoo, enough to say that I won’t be here a while…

Later toots!

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I know the title is irrelevant but I’m okay with that.

As you’ve all seen, there’s the Golden Compass movie coming out. Needless to say (well maybe) but I was pretty darn excited for it. Then I saw the previews….

WHY DOES NICOLE KIDMAN HAVE BLOND HAIR ?!? WTF?!?

Mrs. Coulter, and it has been, more than once, clearly stated, has f-in black hair.

And James Bond as Lord Asriel? Kick me in the ovaries why don’t you. Aaaaaaaaaaaaargh. I HATE YOU HOLLYWOOD!!! And guess who is making the movie… F-in Disney. DISNEY!!! Oh be still my poor tormented heart. What the heck is this. I can barely contain my rage right now. I just can’t handle it. I just can’t.

First I guess I should justify my rage.

You see, this is one of the first Books of my life. This is the book that got me started on a certain path I’m happily following right now. Yes I know, I’m 17 things will change but I know, the way you know jumping from too high could be painful, the way you know you like or dislike someone before knowing them, that kind of knowing, that this book had changed things for me. It changed the way I saw things, it changed the way I thought certain things an even some of my beliefs. That’s how important this book has been to me. It isn’t like Eragon, where even though the movie totally sucked I can’t say I was too disappointed or Lord of The Rings where I was quite happy with the product. But if I don’t agree with the previews, the previews for God’s sake, how can I pay to see that?

I’m very scared to hear Iorek Byrnison because to me he has a deep voice, full of strength, courage and wisdom. I don’t want to hear his voice. I really don’t. But how can Philip Pullman allow this? I think they might have tricked him.

Which brings me to the final point of this entry. Philip Pullman is a known and self-proclaimed atheist (how else can you be an atheist really?) but the point of His Dark Materials series isn’t God is dead or Religion is for idiots. Actually he says it better than I do so here’s an excerpt of him responding to an email sent to him about the movie:

As for the “Authority” business, I’ve always made it clear that theocracy - the political exercise of religious authority, which is what the Magisterium in the story embodies - is a special example of the regrettable tendency of humankind to believe in “one size fits all” answers: to cling to the extreme of dogmatic fundamentalism whether religious or not.

Which I think is pretty fair and accurate. For the full email exchanges go here http://filmchatblog.blogspot.com/2007/11/philip-pullman-extended-e-mail.html

So my problem is that there seems to be some controversy about it. Apparently (do not quote me on this) there have been a few Christians that have refused to go see the movie or read the book which is a complete waste to me. I have read books I did not agree with but that does not mean that I did not enjoy them. Like Narnia. I was, at first, very happy with the books. At the time (I was 12 years old) they seemed right, like that’s how I wanted it to be. But as I grew (4 years is a lot, change happens unbelievably slowly) I realised that no, that was not how I wanted it to be, or rather how I thought it was, which is belief. But what my belief is is not really important, it’s irrelevant to truth really, I may believe all I want it will not change what is. So please, no matter what you believe (I’ve written that word too may times) don’t ever stop yourself from exposing yourself to something contrary because there is so much out there and you can’t let the things you already have been told (I don’t want to use the word know here) stop you from finding out new things that might contradict them.

On as side note I bought the Fratellis’ Costelo Music and I am very happy with it. That’s where I got my title from actually “Got Ma Nuts A Hippie” is a song on there. It’s delicious.

Well this was long but worth it.

I’m off. Tired fingers.

Don’t you just love this avatar? X3 I do love Johnny Depp… RAWR!!!

Well I took a Personality Disorder Test and the results aren’t too surprising… I think But I didn’t know what some of that meant =_____=

So I’m a Histrionic… This is kind of weird =_____=
But I do like being the center of attention…

LOOK AT ME!!! LOOK AT ME!!! LOOK AT ME!!! LOOK AT ME!!!

Be still my heart

I am sooo excited! I got a job at Bootleger!!! I’ll be starting next week I think. Kyaaa

So I get 50% off my first two purchases of the month and 30% the rest of them. So that means brand name jeans for way cheaper. Woot Woot. To add it all off, my crush is my partner for an english project XD but it’s kind of fading so I don’t know if I’ll enjoy it or end up thinking he’s a complete doofus.

Ah life.

Speaking of which I need to raise money for grad so I’ve been hustling poeple to buy my chocolate. But I kind of feel bad… Well at least I’ll have a super awesome grad right. Right?

Nyaaaaaaaaaa I have Wordpress!!! Okay where to start. So I finally managed to do this, next step of course is to learn how to make themes but that’s way far in the future, I’m in no hurry since there are so many out there, I’ll find something if I want to. But on to the bloggage.

Yesterday I went to my piano teacher’s recital and it was amazing (he’s a50-60ish Male Russian) He jumped once in a while and it was so much fun. It was a Chopin recital for any of you who care,  and he even played the Fantasy Improptu #2 I think it was awe inspiring as well as the Funeral March (which was the third movement of a Sonata). After I went straight home and practiced for almost two hours 0_____0 because he made me want to play like that so much. I must admit I’ve been kinda slacking lately in my piano… but I’m going to change *cough*a little*cough* now. You’ll see. You’ll all see. lol

The icon? Oh I decided to try something new, like non-anime,  just to see if I could. It’s Tyra Banks for those of you who don’t know